Needing You
By StillScreaming
Three black roses lay on my empty bed. It wasn't always so cold and lonely, its your abscence that
has made it ache. But now I also know you arn't ever going to come back, at least not the way we were before. As you clearly
can see there is a note taped to one of the flowers, I see you eyes fill with concern, you know just what those haunting letters
so messly scribled, folded within in that letter say.
I wonder what will become of this note, will it be framed?Will it be published? Will it be
ripped up and forgotten about? The pain they will feel when they read those filthy words of sorrow will be nothing to compare
to the pain was felt. You will never know what truly what you have done to me, you never will....
After a few long secounds that seemed like hours you drag your eyes away from the paper till their
staring hauntly into my faded dull eyes. You see me with a gun to my held up to my head clenched tighly in my shaking hands.
With tears screaming down your face you cry out you love me.
More lies...more dirty little lies, I don't belive you, why should I, you had your secound chance,
along with your third and forth too. You've taken my miserey by the hand to many times, and now my own hands are gonna end
this torment.
You tell me my life will eventually get better and i just need to stay strong, that you know that
I can manage. How very wrong you are. Not after what he did...I loved him and he lied to me and now he's gone. So tell me
my dear friend how will my life ever get any better?
Now I too have tears racing down my face, taking the reminder of eyeling with them. I can't handle
is any more. Not the nightmares. Not the reality. But you tell me to give the gun to you.
This isn't how it was suppose to be. I wasn't suppose to cry and you arn't suppose to love me. You
weren't suppose to arrive this soon. Sure as hell you arn't suppose to try and stop me.
You ask me why I would want to hurt everyone like this. I feel my heart beat and the blood running
to my head as I scream,
"Everyone? Who? My friends? I have none. All I have are fucking liers who decive me. Therefore who
is there to hurt?"
I see you eyes fill up with hurt, and I feel pity upon you, why I don't know. Your voice cracking
as your try and keep your composure so you don't frighten me more because you know I would rather die then be hurt by love
again.
But you still try to convince me that you love me and you won't be able to live without me. I know
your just trying to get the gun out of my hands and me safetly into your arms.
Fuck it...too late, it won't work...I have nothing left. I let a sorry slip through my shaking lips
as my finger smashes down the trigger.The three black roses now bleed and tears mix with the deep red fresh blood.
