I sat on the front porch and smoked a cigerette. I looked out into the street, where some of our neighbors hung out. Mostly the thugs, goths, widows and gang hangers. I lost it all.

My feeling for love, my soul, and the cash. Bam lost all of his money and sold castle Bam. Me and Forest like in a one story, two bedroom house. It sucks, its all the way in the fucking ghetto.

Bam and me don't talk much, Novak went back to the dope and Booze's just about every night.

Ryan lives in New York. He left six years ago and no ones heard from him since. So here I am, this time I'm actually alone. Well no, I can't say that. I have my lovely boyfriend. Jason Turner. Hes a freak.

"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE YOU GANG HANGER PEICE OF SHIT!!" Jason yelled from the house. I dropped my cigerette on the ground and stepped on it. I got up, dusted my jeans and headed into the house.

When I got in, Jason had Forest pinned up against the wall. "JASON!" I screamed. I ran up to thm and grabbed his arm, I tried to pull it down. "GET THE FUCK AWAY FRO ME!" He swated his hand across my face. His hands moved to Forest's neck.

"JASON, NO PLEASE!!" I cried. His eyes moved from me to Forest. He let him go with a shove against the wall. Jason picked me up and whispered into my ear, "I'll deal with you later." He dropped me to the floor before storming out of the house.

"Mom are you okay?" Forest asked crouching down beside me. I looked into his eyes. I could've sworn I saw Ville for a second. I was crazy and I knew it. I broke down into tears and sobbed into my son's chest.

"Ville, why did you leave me, why?" I asked to no one. Forest held onto me as tight as he could. I pushed away from him and wiped my nose with the back of my hand. "Mom... we need to get outta here," he said to me. I stood up, ignoring his comment and walked into my bathroom.

I rumaged threw the droors and found a cutter. I slid it into my wrist. I inhaled the air and let it loose. Maybe this was it. Maybe I should just do it now. So I did. I pointed the tip of the knife to my neck and slid it across, slowly, and painfully.

I could feel the blood dripping across my neck and down into my old, raggedy shirt. I closed my eyes. For when I opened them, everything was blurry. I looked down at my wrists which were red and wet. "Oh god..."

I fell to the ground and my head bounced off the wall. I blinked blankly a couple times trying to clear my vision. I tried to stand but was to weak. "Forest..." I muttered.

"Don't worry my love," I looked up and saw Ville. He smiled at me anbd caressed my cheek with his hand.

"Your with me now," he held his hand out and I grabbed it. And we spent the rest of our new lives in each others embrace.