"Jess? Jess please wake up!" someone shook my shoulder. I opened my eyes and saw Raab and Bam standing above me. "Thank god," Bam whispered.

"Woah," I sat up, "what happened?" they looked scared. "I found you in here, it scared me," Raab said with tears in his eyes.

"Umm Jess...." Bam grabbed my wrist gently and looked at the fresh wound. Raab gasped. "Why would you do this to yourself?" Bam asked. "I-" they wouldn't understand.

"Ville," Raab whispered. He stared at me dead in the eyes. My eyes swelled with tears and I cried. Raab pulled me into his arms and I cried into his chest, soaking his black CKY shirt.

"Its okay Jess....its okay..." he whispered. He rubbed my back, still holding on tightly. "I'll go tell Ape shes okay," Bam slipped out and left us alone. "Raab I need him," I whispered clutching onto him. "I know, I know...." he kissed the top of my head.

I let go of him and pulled away.

His tears were everywhere. "He needed you too," he sqeaked. He looked down at my wrists again. "Jess, please don't do this to yourself anymore....Ville wouldn't like it," he said. I nodded. It was true.

"Come on," he helped me up and led me to my room. Before leaving the bathroom he grabbed gauz wrapping. He set me on the bed and wrapped and cleaned my wrists. "Momma?" we both looked to the door and saw him standing there. My son. Our son.

Forest David Rush-Valo.

He just turned two. I looked at Raab who looked at me too. He nodded his head and stood. He walked out of the room. "Come here Forest," he obeyed. He walked up to me and sat on my lap. "Wheres Daddy?" he asked.

I breathed heavily for a second. I rotated him so he was looking at me, eye to eye. "Do you remember when Phil left?" I asked. He looked sad. "Uncle Bran said he went to heaven," he said.

"Thats right, well your daddy..." his green eyes met my blue ones. I bit my lip as an attempt to stop the tears. "He uhh...." I stalled.

He looked up at me and said, "Is daddy is heaven too?" A tear escaped.

"Yes Forest, Daddy is in heaven."