Ryan went to the bathroom.he'd been trying all day to forget about last night and the episode in the bathroom with Dico.

 

No matter how hard he tried,he couldn't forget about it.He was so out of place with his body and everything.

 

'I wish I could talk to and see Lexa." he thought,calling her by his special nickname he had given her.

 

He thought of the day when they both had given each other those nicknames.A faint,but genuine smile crossed his lips.

 

He was getting ready to go an ask her if she remembered that day, when he realized she wasn't at hime.She was on tour.

 

Then all the reality came rushing back,and hit him like an oncoming car.He felt angry and stupid at himself.

 

Angry because she was gone, and stupid for not realizing it in the first place.

 

He went over and started to look for something sharp...

~**~

"Alexia?" a voice asked on the phone.

 

"Yea.Who's this?" Alexia asked the caller.

 

"It's Ashley." she said.

 

"Hey!What's up?" she asked gleefully."I haven't talked to you in a while!I miss you guys so much!"

 

"We miss you too!But I called to tell you about Ryan." Ashley said to her.

 

"Oh my god.Is he alright?Is he still..." she trailed off.

 

"Yea he's still alive.But he's hurt,I guess you'd say.He's doing it again." she said grimly.

 

"Again?Oh my god.I need to talk to him.Better yet,Ill talk to him and then come out for a surprise visit,because I get 2 weeks off.I just heard." she told Ashley.

 

"I'd love to see you!" Ashley told Alexia."Do you want me to go and get Ryan so you can talk to him?"

 

"Yes,please.Thanks!" she thanked Ashley.

 

"Okay.I'll be right back." Ashley said,putting the phone down so she could go and get Ryan.

~**~

She went to Ryan's room,but didn't see him there.She checked in the Pleasure Lounge, but he wasn't there either.

 

Raab walked by.

 

"Hey Raab!Have you seen Ryan?" she asked hurridly.

 

"Yea.I just passed him.he was heading towards the bathroom.He looked real weird.He looked real depressed and stuff." Raab told her.

 

"Oh my god!!" Ashley exclaimed,as she ran towards the bathroom.