Chapter 7
 
It was 2 am. Ryan couldn’t sleep. He kept tossing and turning. He couldn’t believe he had finally been caught.

 

After all the precautions he took so no one would know what he did and how he felt.
 
‘Now they’re definitely going to send me somewhere.’Ryan thought, getting annoyed and angry.
 
He felt annoyed because he guessed a part of him wanted to get caught, so maybe he’d feel loved or get some attention.

 

Or maybe so she would come back.He never really knew how he felt these days.
 
He gave a disgruntled sigh and sat up in bed. He turned his body around until his feet were touching the cold hardwood floor.
 
He got off the bed and made his way towards the bathroom.

 

He made his way towards the bathroom but not before he looked over the banister down into Castle Bam’s ‘Pleasure Lounge’.

 

He remembered the day they moved into Castle Bam.
 
‘I’ve been such a burden on Bam. Living in his house, eating all his food. He probably wants me to move out.’ Ryan thought.
 
He moved over to go and sit on the steps.He sat on the top stair and contemplated his life.

 

He felt so alone when she was gone. Then it hit him.

 

There’s one person he hasn’t talked to yet.
 
She would always be there for him. She wouldn’t judge him.

 

In fact, she’d probably be able to pull him out of this hole he’s fallen into.

 

She has been there for him, for god knows how long!

 

He’d go and call her up and have her come and help him. 
 
‘She’s always been able to help me, whenever I’ve needed her.’ Ryan thought becoming happy.
 
He would have never dreamed of telling another soul about how he felt. But he felt as if he could share this secret with her. She told him one of her deepest darkest secrets. Hell, they’d told each other every possible thing under the sun!
 
He loved her more then life itself. He’d die for her. In fact, she was what drove him into this depression. Made him into the monster that he’d become. She was always gone, off touring with CKY and HIM.  
 
He missed her so much when she was gone. He felt so alone and by himself. He knew she missed him, and he missed her. But she didn’t know how much.
 
He thought of  the day she left to go on tour, about 2 weeks ago…..