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Brother Helps Brother
By Musicbabe14
Chapter 8
That was the biggest turning point
for Bam. He made sure he was around Jess as much as possible to prevent anything from happening again.
Jess wouldn't
have left Bam alone even if Jess had tried to keep him away. That night would forever be seared into Jess' memory. Nothing
would ever make him forget what had happened in that room. It was too terrible to forget.
Ever so slowly, Bam began
to feel like himself again. The part of him that wanted to die was very slowly going away. Things didn't happen all at once
but they were getting better. He began to see more of what Jesshad been telling him everyday.........
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"It's going to be okay, Bam." Jess was saying.
"It's not going to be easy, that's for sure."
Bam commented lightly. Jess smiled, glad to have his best friend back.
"Who said anything was going to be?" Jess asked.
"But that's okay ‘cause..."
"It's all good!" Bam finished. They shared a secret grin. They shared something
closer than what any other brothers in the world probably shared.
Bam snapped himself back into reality and opened
the front door. April was walking through the foyer.
"Hey, everybody got your message and are waiting in the living
room. So what's up? What did you need to tell us?" April greeted.
"It's a long story." Bam told him as they walked
into the living room of his parent's house.
"We've got the time, Bam." Phil replied as Jess and Bam sat down.
Bam
began to tell them about the past month and everything he had to deal with during them It wasn't easy but Bam managed to continue
his story without pause, until he came to the night Jess had stayed with him.
So far, Bam hadn't discussed that night
in great detail, not even with Jess.
Jess didn't know what he expected Bam to say about that night. Jess had tried
to put it out of his mind as much as he possibly could.
"There was one night, after that first time, that I almost..."
Bam began. He paused there, unable to think of what he could say.
"And I would have, if Jess hadn't stopped me. When
he first came in I couldn't even talk, I couldn't do anything. I finally whimpered or something and he found me. He stayed
with me all night. If Jess had left me that night I don't know what I would have done. I wouldn't still be here though. He
saved my life." Bam whispered.
"It's been rough, there were a lot of ups and downs. There still are a few but I know
I'm not going to do anything stupid anymore. It's still..." Bam took a deep breath before continuing.
"It's still
hard but I don't want to die. I don't want to try to kill myself anymore."
"Why didn't you tell us?" Raab asked quietly.
"I was afraid you'd be disappointed in me. I was afraid you'd hate me." Bam replied casting his eyes to the floor.
"Bam, we wouldn't have thought any less of you. We all knew something was wrong and we were worried about you. You
would have helped if we'd known." Ryan told him.
"I know. I'm sorry I didn't tell you. But I just...I just couldn't.
I should have told you and gotten help but I didn't want to let anyone down. I'm so sorry for not telling you guys.
I
know you would have helped. I made Jess promise he wouldn't tell. But I shouldn't have let him deal with everything I went
through by himself. That is why I finally decided to tell you guys.
It is still so hard. I know now that I need the strength
of my family and friends in order to fully get through this. I'm sorry." Bam glanced at the others and then at Jess, silently
asking them for forgiveness.
"It doesn't matter what I went through as long as you're okay now." Jess commented softly.
April took an extra long look at her oldest son. She was very impressed Jess had managed to handle this on his own.
April was, however, a little disappointed Jess hadn't told anyone about this.
What if Bam had ever hurt himself? What
if he had...April didn't want to think about any what ifs. She was just glad they both came out of that ordeal unscathed.
April got up from her place on the couch and walked over to her sons, giving them each a long hug.
Bam hugged
her back and started crying "I'm sorry Ape, I'm so sorry."
"It's okay, Bam you're going to be okay." She soothed.
Bam pulled away as April wiped his tears "Yeah, mom I'm going to be okay"
THE END!
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