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Life Isn't Fair
By Grave
Chapter 14
Novak
and Dico walked up to a pimply teen sitting at the front desk. Dico hit the bell jsut for fun and the boy gave him a glare
and silence it and waited for him to speak.
"Hey I have reservations for Brandon"
"Umm yea you are the only
one most people dont make resevreations for a motel."
Novak stood there in shock.
'Holy shit Dic's gonna
rape me, i dont even know where i am so i cant run. i said i wanted to feel like one of the guys again no a rape victim.'
"I got the key, whats wrong? your looking really pale."
"Umm you arent gonna rape me or something? cause thats
not gonna make me feel very good."
"What!? no youll see" Brandon stop infront of a shitty door.
It looked
yellowish and the paint was peeling off one of the numbers on the door had fallen off.
"TAA-DAAHH!"
The room
look worse inside there were 2 beds, one was slanted somehow. The window had a piece of cardboard covering a hole and the
thing the tv was sitting on had 3 legs. The 4th leg was made up of books.
"Well lets get started. I got beer and food
and a movie. You'll love it its a old western one. They are the best for a laugh." said Dico as he sat on a bed.
"Umm
Ok im gonna go take a piss." Novak walked into the bathroom just as Dico cell started ringing.
D-Hello?
B-Dico!
Novaks missing! WE cant find him. I think he killed himself! Can you look around Westchester. Ape and Phill are checking the
train/bus station. Ryan and Raab are checking the woods and Jenn is at the airport. Iunno I think he may have gone to baltimore
to get more herion. Drive around. His cell is in his room so dont bother calling it.
D-I kidnapped him, hes with me
B-WHAT
THE FUCK DIC!
Dico hung up and turned off his cell.
"Who was that?" said Novak as he walked out of the bathroom.
"No one, here have a beer."
The two sat down and started drinking and eating cheezits the put the movie in.
Dico started laughing at the most randomsly part, Novak didnt find the movie funny but couldn't stop laughing at Dico's laugh.
After about 6 beers each both guys were drunk.
"I know you relly dont wanna talk bout this, but i gotta no why did
you do it?" Dico slurred
"I hated myself, i hated the fact that i couldn't even buy a pack of cigs without borrowing
money."
"O i didnt know it was that. You could have gotten a job or something, we could have helped." Dico knew that
wasnt the reason and Novak thought he was tricking him.
For a while everyone had try to get him to tell them and he
would get upset and wouldn't talk. Dico knew he wouldnt talk that quick, but he decided to play along.
"Want another
beer? we got like 4 more each."
"Sure, and Dico thanks for this you know kidnapping me and getting me beer."
"Sure
but wanna tell me the real reason why you tired you can't fool a drunk Dico. Im more alert when Im drunk."
"Not really"
"I think you do and you are just too scared that i wont be able to help. But i swear on my life I can help Brandon.
Im not gonna let you just disappear from our lives. Not again."
"Shut up Dic. I said i didnt want to."
"Fine.
then we arent leaving into you tell me why you did it. We are far enough that you cant walk home and there arent many bus
stations around. Plus you dont have any money or a phone so you cant leave." Dico smirked.
"You are such a ass Dico,
I dont want to be here, just let me go home Brandon."
"Why so you can pretend everything is ok but really you just
sleep longer and longer and one day you arent gonna get up. YOU ARE FUCKING WASTING YOUR LIFE AWAY! I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU
DO THAT AND KNOW I CAN HELP YOU! GODDAMIT LET ME HELP YOU!" Novak stared Dico down intill he lowered his eyes and just said
"I know, I've wasted my life away already. It's no big deal. Just let me go home."
"You try to act like I
dont know what in your room. Brandon Ive gone though your stuff I know where your herion is. Thats why you shut your self
in your room so you can get high and mess everything up a little more. You think I dont see though your fake smiles and fake
laughs. But I do. Ok i fucking do and I'm not gonna let you go again."
"Again?" Novak looked scared that someone knew
that he wasn't completly off the drugs yet.
He was for a little but he just needed to feel safe and once he was better
and the thoughts were gone he was going to stop, no matter what.
"You rember, when you came to Bam's old houe all
beat up and then you tried to run away but Jessi tackeled you. And you said your house had gotten rob and you didn't feel
safe at home so you hadn't wanna go back? we were all like Yea thats a good story its seems true. Noone cared when you left,
we didnt noe if you were dead or anything for 3 months and then you called one day to say hi. We let you go then too."
"I
thought you hated me. Why do you suddenly care now." Novak's vioce had a coldness to it and his eyes seem to have no life.
Dico was suddenly thinking maybe I shouldnt have done this I should have let a cousnel get into this.
"Because..because
I care ok, maybe your parents dont care and maybe the world doesnt care but I do and I always will."
"You really wanna
know? and you arent gonna let me go are you?" Novak said in a whisper. Dico could tell he was trying to cry.
"Yea...I
really do Brandon."
"Fine..Iunno it was my moms boyfriend didnt want me talking to my mom, he thearten to call the
police on me if I came by, so I stoped coming."
"Serisouly what did your mom say?"
"I dunno Im not allowed
to talk to her or see her anymore." He felt his cheeks get wet and he wanted to kill himself now Dico was gonna tell everyone
he cried.
"I..I..um I couldnt take all the jokes. They hurt so much. You guys always were making jokes about my past
and shit I do and I would get mad but it seem like the umm ~sniffle~ the madder i got the more you guys did it. and
I didnt like not feeling in control of my life. I got on herion again and I couldn't stop it seem so much harder this time.
For fuck sakes I didnt want to be on herion but i couldnt stop myself but brain said no i dont want herion anymore but my
veins cried for it. And my Dad hes been on crack all my life, he doesnt care about me, he only loved me when i could skate
and i won money. I hated him for it and I hate that he beat me and my ma up."
He was sobbing by the end and he pulled
his knees up to his head and buried his head in them. His body shook and he couldn't stop. He felt a arm go across his shoulders
and then he felt someonee pull his shaking body until theirs.
"I just I hate life sometimes. It's not fair. Why me
I was jsut a kid and my dad jesus christ he didnt care. My mom she didnt even try to leave at first and he didnt care if we
were gonna if we were gonna get killed cause he couldnt pay for crack or acid. I fucking omg i fucking hate all of this and
I jsut wanted to stop everything and get some fucking peace in heaven. But i already fucked tha up!"
"Shhh brandon
its ok. i can help you. You just cry thats your job for now. I'll get you help and you'll be fine."
Dico slowly rocked
Brandon as he cryed on to his shoulder. He patted his back and told him everyhting was gonna be ok. He never thought he would
ever be doing this.
He felt horrible it was true he loved to pick on him. The little things mad him angry and when
he was angry it was funny. He never stoped and thought about what it did to Novak.
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